volatile emotions

lost in motion

slow motion like waves in the ocean

entropy rising in my mind

overflowing 

i got stacks of questions

writing so i can unpack my head filled with these teenage emotions

paper spread all over the floor lookin like im designing

my mind

my spirit 

unpacking tangled yarn dyed in the color chaos

defusing a bomb 

same precision 

try not to blow up

shit can get bloody 

period

im 20 going 21 i still feel like a child on the inside

tell me to be so mature 

but im already getting so bored in this short tenure

going at this sober since October in 01

im fighting with myself every night not knowing why-i-i-i 

dont have the credentials

dont have the energy

dont belief myself

maybe im just overthinking this and making a big mess

i wanna apologize to myself for treating you this way-ay-ay

i know ive been telling myself li-i-ies

i wanna tell you brother that your doing alright

you know with your heart that your a good man 

just keep doing the best you can 

the future is a bright horizon 

i hope you know that you are enough

i hope you know that you are worthy of love

not gonna lie its gonna take some time to really feel this way 

but dont give up on yourself 

not gonna lie its gonna take some time to really feel this way 

but dont give up on yourself 

i promise its gonna be worth the ride

the sacrifice

dealing with all the lies on the inside

i promise its gonna be worth the ride

better days are coming

currently just shedding leaves

your a little kid

you have no clue

you just opened the book

you have a rich destiny

I know that’s true

just keep turning the pages

dont close the book just burn the pages

you are fire

you dont know how precious you are

beautiful boy

you dont know the future you like I do