am i valid

am i valid 

when i dont have the credentials for this world

when i have bad habits like sinners

cant wash em away when theres no god good enough for me

live this tainted reality with non stopping flashbacks 

is it really worth watching through this shattered lens

is it really real if you cant release tears

how can i move on when the problems wont

seeing people living happily like i once was

till i sat in the shade too long 

eyes hurt being in the light

cocaine highs take the pain away