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deep regression
been looking at my computer so much
losing my sight cause I lost my vision
listening to ye
this pain got an atheist looking to religion
looking for a shoulder to lean on
my asymmetries got me feeling off
i need a club so I can invite these demons to fight
i hope i’m gon be alright
as long as I got demons in sight like I’m introspective
these dark long nights are interesting
so much interacting
the more I see the more empty I become
no depression
just a deep regression
i’m slidin
fightin
these suicidal thoughts seepin in
not who I used to be
boxed in by who I’ve become
from nineteen years sober to doing drugs
feeling like a cheat code
nah nah nah
too scared to cheat my codes
tryna dial in but I got on aeroplane mode
while I’m buying this haute couture
two hundred dollar ripped carhartt jacket
shit
thats poor couture
slow motion car crash
thoughts running my mind like a 100m dash
tryna make it to the finish
these bright lights blinding my eyes like the windows
tryna sleep in the mornings
mourning
the person i used to be
five am runs in melbourne winters like uber eats
hullucinating when exhausted, but never missin days
now im laying in my bed missing those days
bed ridden
crippled on the inside
lookin at the ceiling thinkin about goin outside
this lockdown got me feeling drown
deep waters too cold
i’ve let myself down
we humans think we’re immortal
heaven and hell because we’ll never be total
not livin’, summing up net worth before death
too shallow to explore depth
feeling inept
seeing photos on explore showing benz’, mclarens and F1
what do i have to do to impress all these bens and karens for me to be one
whole
so sick
of consuming these dark twisted thoughts
my brain don’t try fighting (MBDTF)
i dont wanna have to
behave,
explain,
complain
coz motherfuckers gonna disdain
i’m not here for that
i’m in pain