i don’t know what i am
not who
but the contents within me
feels empty as of recently
a big weight has collapsed on me
destroyed everything brittle
and left behind the things with substance
trivialities no longer entertain
a soul which once entertained
now my mind feels light as a feather
only running the essential programs for life
not computing anything for exploration
all my hidden humor and flaws are now hidden files
i can’t find them
have to start a new
alias
what name will the server give me
i dont know but it will ring true
its the reward for spending countless hours in a community
then again i dont want to be boxed in by a username
i change often
and i often change a great deal
so will my friends still remember me?
will i be able to be friends with them from anew?
would they still recognize me
or do i try make new ones?
i wish i knew
but there’s no tutorial
and what’s the fun in cheating anyway?
i have to analyze every word i write and ignore it
because there is a truth and lie behind each one
if it rings more true than lie, i’ll leave it
but just because i leave it
doesn’t mean i wont come to realize a better meaning for it