mirage
where did you go?
you’re like all the lost memories that shaped me
and now im questioning how i got here
through the amour fou that consumed us
the sex that sustained us
and the sunset ice creams that calmed us
why have i become so blasé
about the amour fou
the night that kept going
is suddenly still
back to black playing back to back
drowning out the loneliness of this suffering
will i see you in rehab
will we pretend we don’t see each other
or will we escape in the still of the night
when i look at you everything stops
the woman that made my heart race
i look at her and see a gray fate
i look at the mirror
i see another gray face
somewhere i stopped looking and the smile escaped
stab me in the back
i can’t feel the dire situation
when all i see is a mirage